ELLE's

2010-08-24T02:54:00.000+08:00

found a new space, a new nest

http://ellerinalow.tumblr.com

2010-07-16T00:48:00.002+08:00

things to do over the weekends:

study for PR
study for Macro
study for M.I.C.E
start on PP

last 4 weeks last 4 weeks last 4 weeks
hang on elle

P.S. i want a new wallet :( my burberry one like orh lu lu already! :(( maybe a prada or miumiu? SIGH! money money drop from sky!

2010-06-14T10:51:00.000+08:00

one day,
i will let go of everything here and travel around

2010-06-11T19:32:00.003+08:00

good trip
good dives
good food
good weather
good people
good chats
good tanning
good everything
=
life's great

p.s i've got the idea of traveling somewhere for 2 weeks to a month. anyone?

feasting day 1

2010-05-28T19:54:00.003+08:00

and so i feast!
yesterday after the performance, went 888!
had:
1. seafood meegoreng
2. prawn chee chong fan (those traditional kinda)
3. char siew bao
4. scallop dumpling
5. chicken stuffed yam puff
6. ou jian (without oyster)
one word, SHIOCK!
but suffer from indigestion for awhile -.- too long never eat sooo much and so oily&rich stuff already. HAHAHHAHAH

today morning had mcdonald's hotcakes with sausage + hashbrown before rehearsal! i ate everything!
SATISFIED!

after rehearsal went chinatown on a short&sweet day tour with wiing!
had:
1. almond&sesame sliced milk snow ice
2. HUGE cantonese rice dumpling
3. 2 small tau sa piah (one sweet one salty)
4. 2 BIG chinese patries (one red bean one green bean crust with dou sa filling)
SUPER SATISFIED! HAHA!

really feast straight after momentum! (Y)
but at the rate i'm eating, i reckon i will gain 10 kg by singapore arts festival performance
HAHA!

ciao! gonna have dinner! mummy cook!
so gonna have:
1. shitake mushroom with oyster sauce
2. chilli prawn!!
3. fried fish
4. veggi
5. more veggi

YUMMY YUMMY YUMMY!!
everything also yummy!
HAHAHHAHAHAHHA!

this is life, yo.

P.S i'm gonna be home alone for 4 days 3 nights : ( mummy brother auntie all going penang, sigh, how i wish i can go too! but nvm, 4 days alone, i shall... cook&bake? anybody wanna come over and try my cooking&baking? or anybody wanna come crash? movie marathon? yes?
HEHE!
INTERESTED PARTIES, PLEASE CALL ME!

2010-05-27T00:22:00.001+08:00

i'm so gonna feast tml night, after momentum.

2010-05-25T01:51:00.000+08:00

with this, i announce that's the end of everything.

fav churros with hot chocolate

2010-05-24T01:08:00.002+08:00

did a read up on mexican food, very interesting!
they have a lot of corn, uses a lot of tortillas, spices and herbs.
very much like it, think i'm gonna pick out some recipe and try it out!
oh, and i saw this churros recipe while i flip through pages of mexican food recipes, thought of 2am's churros with hot chocolate drink! my love!
*craving for it now
but the one at 2am is a tad too sweet for my liking, might try doing my own churros!
YUM!

life now

2010-05-23T20:32:00.002+08:00

i can't wait for everything to be over.
OVER OVER OVER!

on a sidenote, i'll be home alone for 4 days! 29th may - 1st june, mummybrotherauntie all going penang to attend my cousin's wedding. how sad!
the one who's going supposingly is me!

why the fuck i go for the fking audition and fking get in and now i can't fking cope and i fking wanna break down and i fking can't do well for it and i know at the end of the performance it will just give me a damm fk up feeling but i fking can't wait for it to be over.

:( i need a break, i need someone to be there, but who? :(

sigh, back to the home alone topic, 4 days alone, what should i do?
i'm thinking of cooking!
anyone interested?

you

2010-05-20T23:58:00.003+08:00

although i know it's not gonna matter to you,
but i really just wish that..
i make you smile,
i really mean something to you,
i am of more importance to you,
i have more of your attention,
i am someone you will never get bored of,
i am someone you wanna rely on,
i am someone you will always wanna look for,
i am someone you will wanna tell your countless stories to,
but i guess this soap opera do not exist here, not in my world.
or maybe it's just not you?

2010-05-19T01:05:00.000+08:00

apple crumble
tiramisu
blueberry muffin
mudcake

i'm gonna bake these.

2010-05-16T23:02:00.001+08:00

and gone just like that?
why?

worn out

2010-05-15T23:46:00.002+08:00

i slept in the cab on the way to munwai's rehearsal today,
i slept after rehearsing for whatever i need to in the dance studio,
i slept after lunch when on the way to ite simei in cab,
i slept after the preview for munwai's is done in ite simei dance studio,
i slept on the way home in bus 969 and knock my head 3 times on the glass panel.
i'm half asleep now!

dive ig

2010-05-14T01:44:00.000+08:00

fav song for now: Everyday I Love You

2010-05-12T03:36:00.003+08:00

i've always love this kinda musical box, those which you have to turn the knob yourself

so pretty!

really very pretty!

and very very meaningful (to me)!

and the good thing is, it is available in a whole range of songs which i listen to!

those who know me will know what kinda songs i listen to :)

i'm so gonna give my boyfriend(if i ever find one who is worth this pretty thing -.-) a truckloads of this!

2010-05-10T00:48:00.003+08:00

elle, you know you cannot be selfish so please don't be selfish.
and you know it's not gonna work so please don't even go there.
last time?
okay?

2010-05-08T17:46:00.001+08:00

how cliche can this be -.-

but it's true somehow

2010-04-23T03:41:00.000+08:00

how i wish i can fall sick again,
so that i can rest
and think about nothing else.

I HATE WEEKENDS, PERIOD

2010-04-15T00:26:00.002+08:00

weekends used to be the best days out of the week, but it's not gonna be anymore.
i hate weekends approaching,
i hate weekends approaching &
i hate weekends approaching.

why?

BECAUSE THERE'S MUN WAI'S REHEARSAL
AND I JUST
*URGH!
CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT GIVE HIM WHAT HE WANTS
AND I'M ALSO VERY DISAPPOINTED/ANGRY WITH MYSELF!

there's a 4 hours rehearsal on saturday and a 10 hours rehearsal on sunday.
and i seriously.. just. cannot
i've no idea how to express my *clench fist* kinda feelings for it but this feeling really sucks and i'm on the verge of pulling out all my hair because i am very stress, very very stress indeed and his choreography is not easy although it may seems like so but it's not at all because he don't give countings for his movements and he uses breathe&momentum&natural body reaction to give music to the steps he choreograph and it's really so effing difficult and i can tell that he's getting all pissy over the fact that i just can't get what he wants because i'm not showing it but i maybe know what he wants but i just can't show it because it's really difficult and i've not enough time to catch his style and he don't have enough time to give me to do it slowly considering that there's only 7 more rehearsals before he flys off and leave us in the hands of liz, our rehearsal leader which might not be the best choice because he, no matter what is still the choreographer and nobody will know what he really really wants except for him but even if so, we still don't have any choice and we can only choose to take it which is to speed up the learing process and catch it fast and give him what he wants fast and push our body to 200%, no longer 100% or even 101% and he wants us to behave like artistes and not students because he always tell us that we're not students, we're artiste so please fucking dance like one, okay, that f word is silent which i hear/see from him and i'm really so stress because i just don't know what to do or how to dance anymore and also don't know how to give him what he wants and it's just omg, OMG.
i really don't know what to say anymore because all i feel like doing is to pluck off my hair out now.

so right now, period,
i hate weekends, a lot, effing lot, and how i wish it will NEVER come.

school's starting tml, formal wear on the first day, *how sucky can life be?*
and there's dance like tml and friday and saturday and sunday and also next monday.
sigh
sigh
can anyone understand how i'm feeling?
can anyone anyone understand how i'm feeling?
can anyone really understand how i'm feeling?
can anyone really really understand how i'm feeling?

anw, tuesday is gonna be the best day of the week right now,
because every tuesday will be STACEY DAY!
woohoo!
made a pact with stacey dear, that no matter what happen, be it big rain, thunderstorm, flood, earthquake, or whatever, we will definately go out on tuesday after school.
and ben is very jealous! HAHA!
i think this is really good, because once school starts, schedule's gonna be very very hectic and i will not get to see much of stacey too.
we'll most prob be doing work in class, i won't be in for rehearsal on monday, she won't be in for rehearsal on thursday, meaning the only day we will see each other will be friday's rehearsal.
ohwell, at least now we got tuesday, happy enough.

good night.
i hope my class will be fun! with shah and tasha! YEY!
but very sad : ( no more shakila. sigh : (

2010-04-11T01:32:00.000+08:00

i need a drink
anyone?

2010-04-06T16:07:00.002+08:00

the most hectic schedule i ever have,
there's gonna be dance like really 7 days a week.
many upcoming performances,
and thus many rehearsals.
i can travel to 3 different places for meeting/rehearsal/more rehearsal in a day, 2 of which is the same which is school.
so it goes like this, to school for dive meeting, to aljunied/kallang for mun wai's rehearsal and back to school for zaini's rehearsal.
or it can even be a rehearsal before a performance, mun wai's rehearsal from 1 - 4pm and then rush back to school for jam&hop performance at 6.30pm.
and another one, mun wai's rehearsal from 10am - 2pm and then back to school for tjc's reverie v performance at 7pm.
but of course, preparations have to be done for performances, so imagine... woah, i can't imagine.
the amount of things, the time constrain and stuff.

but surprisingly, i'm looking forward to all these, like really.
because i feel a great sense of accomplisment from all these.
the only thing i'm disgusted at is my disability to perform to mun wai's choreography.
very very disgusted, till the fact that i hate myself for that!
but taking in what marcus said, "be patience with your body, because it really takes time to adjust to mun wai's style"
i shall be patience (although i'm still very disgusted and angry at my disability for now)
i wanna get it fast and quick, i want everyone who's gonna come on 3/4th of june to be surprised at how different i am, breaking away from all the ballet lines and the ability to take in a new form of style.
i want it very very badly, very very badly!!!

sigh, on a sidenote, i'm sad. because of all these, i've got less time for the people i love, for the people i care and for the people i adore now.
people like MUMMY, because whenever i reach home, i will just fall asleep on the sofa. and my weekends are gone too, with rehearsal on both days and sunday from like 10am to 7pm!
people like GIRLFRIENDS, april is going to china soon :( and me stalling all the meet up because i can't make it :(
people like RANGERS, because all of us are busy, i'm really very sad that i haven't been meeting them up since like 8765432123456 years ago.
people like MISC, HAHA! there's a lot of people who are dear to me, but they don't belong to a clique of mine, they're just individual and VERY SORRY! i've to put you guys under this category to (still) sum up the same (fact) that i wanna meet you guys up badly, but i can't.

i wanna meet all of you badly but i can't
and I'M SORRY :(

because of all these, some might felt neglected, some might felt i no longer love them, some might felt otherwise of anything positive, i just wanna say:
once dear to me, forever dear to me!
i hope all those who are dear to me can understand me, and give me the support i need, because i need it badly to survive all these! and school is starting soon, i might just die of exhaustion.

5 words to conclude:
I STILL LOVE YOU PEOPLE! :D

p.s this post is really random, but this post is to show that i still care!

dearest

2010-04-02T18:21:00.001+08:00

words can't express my excitement

2010-03-29T21:50:00.002+08:00

so on sunday morning, i woke up being very undecisive about whether should i turn up for an audition by Lee Mun Wai from T.H.E Dance Company.
i was thinking, the chances of me getting in is akin to nil because there're so many good dancers out there and what's me as compared to them. but i hesistated, because i wanna go see how all this kinda auditions are like and how cruel the reality is like.
just nice! zaini texted: wing elle, you all going for the audition later?
WOOHOO! there's company! of course all the more i feel like going for it, so i called wiing and she had the exact same thoughts as me which is: most prob we can't get in.
so we went, and we got in (and i swear we stone there for a few sec).
AND YES! WE GOT IN! HAHAHA!
5 chosen, 1 from SMU, 1 from ITE, 1 from NUS and 2 from RP!
*squeak* (too excited to shout)
hahahha! well, i guess i'm really really happy and very excited about it because...
like people always say, the higher your hope are, the greater you'll fall and vice versa.
our hope = nil, that's why.. phew! i guess wiing thinks the same as me.
congrats wiing! and congrats myself!
hesistated about whether should i take this big challenge up because it's REALLY A LOT of committment, the schedule is hectic,
AND I'LL BE LIKE DANCING 7 DAYS A WEEK?!
but after considering, i really want it and i'll go for it.
so people! please do come watch!
it's on the 3rd and 4th of June 2010, 8pm @ Victoria Theatre.
here's the link:
http://www.singaporeartsfest.com/eventdetails?action=details&id=40
tickets are at $8 and $12 only, cheap cheap!
and kelly bought the tickets already! oh my! love her to the max!
hehe!
and other than this, i'll also be performing with RP Modern Dance in Momentum 2010:
it will be on 26/27th May 2010, 8pm @ Republic Polytechnic Cultural Centre (TRCC)
tickets going at $9 and it's on sales already! if you wanna come watch, please do let me know!
RP Modern Dance will be doing bollywood this time round!
yipee!
hahahhahaha!
i'm really happy, with all the good things lined up for me.
greedy greedy me, i still want:
MORE FOOD!
and ******** (sorry, i'm not gonna disclose this yet)
and that's it!
i'm gonna be the happiest girl on earth.
and..
please
do
come
share
my
joy/happiness
with
me : )

LOVES!

the good friday

2010-03-27T01:33:00.005+08:00

i've got so many cravings!

here's my list: (ahem, this list is the dine-in list ONLY)
1. (all time favourite) Sushi Tei @ Raffles City
2. Asian Kitchen (zha jiang mian + village tofu!) @ Citylink
3. (AWESOME) Dim Sum buffet @ Jade, Fullerton Hotel
4. Crystal Jade Steamboat Buffet (the ENDLESS supply of XIAO LONG BAO!) @ Holland V
5. 2am (the bagus hot chocolate + churros + additional churros!) @ Holland V
6. Overeasy (the famous mini burgers! i've yet to try!) @ One Fullerton
7. The Marmalade Pantry @ ION
8. Rider's Cafe (heard about their delicious apple crumble, I WANT!) @ 51 Fairways Drive
9. 888 (chinese, zhi char kinda) Restaurent @ JB
10. Timbre (think pizza! esp duck pizza) @ Substation/TheArtsHouse
11. Muthu's Flavors (their ultimate spices never fails to thrill me) @ Dempsey
12. Gelare (waffles + ice cream!) @ any gelare
13. 126 Dim Sum (omg, too many to mention, chee cheong fun, BEST!) @ Geylang
14. Rocher Tau Huey (+ you tiao + butterfly + tau huey drink) @ Rocher
15. Ipoh Hor Fan/Goreng Pisang/Chwee Kueh @ Changi Village
16. Zhou's Kitchen (gourmet buffet, i love) @ any Zhou's Kitchen
17. The Courtyard's Chocolate Buffet (yet to try!) @ Fullerton Hotel
18. Subway! (i can never get sick of meatball marinara, toasted with cheese, add chipotle southwest sauce & lettuce, YUM!) @ any subway

here's my list2: (okay, so now for the da-bao list)
1. Swiss Rolls (the durian one is dope) @ Rich and Good Cake Shop
2. Macarons ($6 for 6! but so sinful!) @ Bakerzin
3. Frolick (had it today, it's (Y)) @ any Frolick outlet
4. Durian Puffs (oooo, it's been awhile!) @ Deli, Goodwood Park Hotel

Checked: (O.O) 22 items on the list (O.O)
thus, i conclude:
THIS IS THE REASON WHY I'LL NEVER LOSE WEIGHT/SLIM DOWN!
but well.. even if i've to make sacrifices (like to dance more/run/swim) to eat all these, I WILL!
although at the end of the day i'll just keep whining and stuff but!
HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHHA
who on earth can resist such delicious foods!
~temptation~temptation~

if anyone realised, there is some which i specifically note down which outlet is it instead of "any" as reflected in some, one very good example will be sushi tei.
i've been to raffles places, taka, paragon, tampines 1, only raffles place one (Y), none of the rest can match up to raffles place! be it the food standard or the service standard, woot! raffles place one really bagus + very bagus. i guess that's the only sushi tei which i'll go to.
and the same for asian kitchen also! i went vivo one the other time, but i just don't feel that shiock-ness after i eat as compared to eating at the citylink outlet. both food standard and service standard really stands out at the citylink outlet as compared to the vivo one.
so right now, i stand firm on only visiting raffles place's sushi tei and citylink's asian kitchen! hahaha

and if i'm gonna go on and on about the delicious food i can find at all 22 places i'd jotted down, i bet it's gonna be sucha long post that no one will be interested!

OHWELL! i shall satisfy my cravings one by one and post pictures up to justify my raving of that 22 places! hahha. but maybe not for subway i guess, everyone loves subway, no?

MORE IMPORTANT THAN MY 22 CRAVINGS!
IMA HAPPY GIRL TODAY! because i went out for a good dinner with my GIRLFRIENDS!
ahhaha! can never stop loving them!
and we had fish&co! (one craving down!) haha!
met up at around 6+ 7, wait for people to arrive (late, as usual)
can't deny that there were times when there were silence and it's kind awkward because nobody knows what to talk about next or there's nothing to carry on talking about thus the awkward silence, but i guess it's pretty normal considering the number of times we meet up & the environment we're in now which is very very different for the 5 (that april ng decided to date her bed instead -.-) of us. but what i'm relieve about is, i still love them all the same! and i know they love me all the same too. who cares about awkward silence, i'm sure we'll be able to break it with more meet up and stuff!
anw, everytime i meet up with them, i feel a lot about the fact that we're growing up. the topics we talked about and talk about is totally different, the way we behave and stuff, and i know for sure, this group of girls is people i wanna grow up and grow old with (cel, i never steal your fav line! i'm just in need of it). see each other out in the working world, getting married, give birth, have high tea + shopping together. : )
: )
: )
: )
and with metiga, everything will be perfect!

alright! gonna sleep.
pictures up soon!

2010-03-22T23:37:00.002+08:00

it's like

i want it but i don't want it

and there's not enough reasons to want it

not enough supports to want it

but there's enough feeling to say,

okay i want it

the bottomline of this whole thing is, ?

TGIF

2010-03-12T09:23:00.004+08:00

TGIF TGIF TGIF TGIF TGIF TGIF TGIF TGIF TGIF TGIF TGIF TGIF
(*with much exclaimation mark)
I survive the 5 days office week with the need to wake up at 6.30AM, travel in sardine packed train + bus and start work at 8.30AM which ends later on at 5.30PM and lastly to take the sardine packed x 2 bus back to jurong and the ultimate sardine packed x 10 train at jurong east mrt station which i have to wait for at least 2 trains before i even get to board so there's no need to talk about finding a seat which totally is a booboo! esp when you're in your heels(the whole day).
WOOHOO! that's why.. TGIF!
and next monday will be my last working day before the lady who is now in London(aw!) for holiday comes back to take back her secretary/administrator position which in the jobscope requires: to face a stern and boring boss and an office filled with monotonous and in-their-own-world-engineers.
wooh! done with all the mumblings and yadayada.

on the bright(est) side, i'm meeting my celcel dbs later in town! gonna find her iphone cover and also to do lots of catching up. so ima happy girl today!

**let today be good for me please. and hopefully..
TONIGHT'S GONNA BE A GOOD NIGHT, TONIGHT'S GONNA BE A GOOD GOOD NIGHT!
:D

2010-03-08T23:35:00.000+08:00

i hate people who put on a freaking mask
i hate
and there are so many around me

memories much

2010-03-06T15:56:00.018+08:00

when i hear anyone who calls me by my nickname (which i love a lot because it's given by people i love a lot too), i feel very warm, like.. very close to me. it feels good.
and the nickname is none other than:
DOU DOU!

and i still remember i used to be very jumpy very chirpy and full of antics when i was 17!

see! (i guess a lot of them will come after me -.-)

i got sabo -.-

i tie up my long hair using my sweater in class. haha

very very chubbyyyyy

i do not know why. lol

we first time pon class together. HAHHA

HAHHA

HAHAHAHHAHA!

sorry leeting, i couldn't resist not putting this up. heh!

and monkey. lol

i think they tried to rape me

ahahhaha! tio caught

HAHA!

don't ask me what eileen is doing

wiing's first choreography onstage

aiyo, so chubby -.-

this is an evidence of yvonne taking the chance of helping me to stretch to bully me!

see! ahuh

well...

yes! i used to be tannnnn

yvonne = me much?

: )

eileen tan's bday at fish&co glass house

Artsbite! the place i used to frequent EVERY WEEKDAYS after school!

all the way till around 8 - 10pm?

with that few crazy dancers

mama! when still don't have papa that time

-END-

2010-03-04T01:39:00.001+08:00

i want a polaroid camera : (

wants

2010-02-28T14:56:00.002+08:00

this had me at hello

pretty pretty

the first shade which i ever eye on

and another kate spade new arrival too, but can't seems to find any picture of it : (

2010-02-27T00:40:00.001+08:00

why am i hesistating about going nus dance tml?

2010-01-14T02:10:00.004+08:00

HOLA!

feels that i can breathe today, thus i'm here!

the start of school is akin to the start of doom.

(very) hectic schedule,

(very) great pressure upon me,

(very) tight datelines,

(very) huge amount of work to be done &

(very) TIRING!

life has been *&#$%^&^%$#@ recently.

i can't find a word to describe how life has been actually,

because although i'm (VERY) tired and worn out,

but i'm doing things i love and things i wanna do,

so i can't say that it's tiring, i can't say that it's good either.

maybe i can try "fulfilling" & "satisfying" :)

i think it's a good start, because after all that i've been doing,

i kinda know what i wanna do in life, which path to take.

although life ahead is full of uncertainties, but i'm sure no matter what i do, it must be something which i enjoy doing.

I wouldn't wanna be stuck at something which i do not enjoy, yet i have to do it, thus put on a very fake front and fake "hardwork". nah, i'm not good in this.

well, i'm satisfied.

at least with how life is for me now.

and all my girlfriends and friends! i know i can't dig anytime to be spent with you people, but i'll be soon! wait for me! all the indulges and party :)

have i mention how much i miss my girlfriends yet?

yea, i dooooooo seriously honestly very much miss them a lot!

jio me out okay girls! don't say never jio because i busy, you never jio, you never know!

on a side note, i wanna share my joy about how exciting my next few months will be!

1. it's gonna be the end of year 2, i'm gonna move on to year 3, most likely i'll have a 3 days week. (Y)

2. I see progress in Dive IG, although not enough, but at least there's improvement. i'm gonna give my divers as much as i can fight for us!

3. i'm flying away! this, i shall keep it a secret for now :)

exciting! this is how life should be :))

school tml! gotta crash!

good night all!

P.S: I GAINED WEIGHT! :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

2010-01-03T23:04:00.001+08:00

i thought i finally found myself to be in good hands
am i wrong?

I think I'm sick. :(

2010-01-02T18:34:00.001+08:00

1st January 2010

2010-01-01T15:18:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

HAPPY 2010 TO ME, i sincerely hope.

2009.. I would say 2008 is so much better.
i did not really have a nice 2009.
as a lot of my friends know, more than 3/4 of my blog entries were deleted (because of you know who/what)
so i guess that pretty much sums up everything.

all i can hope, is that 2010 will be a better one for me, just like 2008 when i'm surrounded by so much loves.
all i can hope, is that whoever i "drop" on the way from 2008 to 2009 comes back to me.
all i can hope, is that i'm back to the cheerful elle.
all i can hope, is that everyone loves me still because i'm back to the 2008 elle, the elle who brought fun&laughter only.

as much as i kinda wish that 2009 do not exist at all or i can rewind it, there're still minimal beautiful things which happened that year and i do not wish to erase.
2009, i got my stacey dear! (who just cut bangs and i'm quite sure we will look like big-small-eyes-jie-mei-flower)
2009, my dance improved like what zaini commented, last time i used to be a dead fish, 2009, i came alive! O.O
2009, i got better dance opportunities considering that rp dancers can be on par wit nus dance esemble (Y) and we were on the same stage on 6th november 2009.
2009, i became a better dancer. i used to be so ballerina, dance like a block, dance with no feelings, dance with no expressions. but now i do and i'm very satisfied.
2009, i became the president of dive ig and i will continue holding it till mid 2010. i think i managed to build up the ig bit by bit considering the state of the ig when it was passed down to me -.- and i'm sure it will be even better this year.
2009, i became even more vain. but isn't that good?! :)))
2009, end. I'M BACK TO THE GOOD OL' ELLE :D

all these i will keep, all the rest, i will treat it as a lesson learnt.

anw, new year, new resolution, new expectations, new things to look forward to.
2010, i'm gonna chiong for my last year in school and G-R-A-D-U-A-T-E!
2010, i'm going back to ballet, finally.
2010, i'm gonna be a better person.
2010, i'm gonna be more independent.
2010, i'm gonna be more sensible.
2010, please spend less elle -.- don't blow your savings everytime.
2010, i'm gonna seek for those i lost and keep them close to me heart.
2010, i'm gonna be even a better dancer.
2010, never to lose anyone dear to me anymore.
2010, earn more money.
2010, time to save money!
2010, i wanna go dive more, go to more places.
2010, i just wanna be happy.
and MOST IMPORTANTLY!
2010! I WANNA SEE MY METGAGA AT LEAST 2 TIMES THIS YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

as simple as this, i guess a simple life is easier to maintain : )

I'M GONNA MEET MY GIRLFRIENDS LATER ON! SO EXCITED! SO HAPPY! CIAO!

2009-12-24T03:27:00.001+08:00

i think my thigh are booms.
elle! do something!

2009-11-30T23:06:00.000+08:00

haiya.. i'm bursting soon, like real soon.
so many things!
just feel like running away, run far far away!
i miss going out with girlfriends, go have meal with friends and everything.
my life is damm fucking boring and lifeless now.

2009-11-19T12:44:00.000+08:00

TMD
NEVER ENDING PERFORMANCES
I'M SERIOUSLY VERY SICK AND TIRED OF IT ALREADY.

when life got motivated

2009-11-17T11:30:00.002+08:00

november 2009.
one month to the end of 2009.
am i satisfied?
no, sad to say no
president of dive ig, vice-president of modern dance
but it feels like because i got pre-occupied with something else ,
(WHICH IS LIKE A TOTAL WASTE OF TIME AND EFFORT!)
i didn't managed to give it my best,
that's definately not my best.
i kinda regret it actually.
but well, life goes on, at least my life is kinda back to how it used to be like, i am back to the old elle low yi han, not toooooooo bad.
is that a good start for 2010?
i really hope so.
current - april 2010
still! the president of dive ig and vice-president of modern dance.
since i can't turn back time, i made a firm decision on giving it my best for the responsibilities respectively.
5 more months, i wish i have more, but i wasted the past 7 months given to me,
GIVE IT ALL ELLE, YOU CAN DO IT.
april 2010, republic polytechnic, year 3.
i'm gonna graduate soon, so fast.
i'm glad that i've been attending school everyday since this sem,
i too, wasted the previous 2 semesters on rubbish matters too.
again, i'm gonna tell myself this, since i can't turn back time, just make sure that i do not continue with the slack me anymore, give it all elle, you can do it.

on a (right) sidenote, as you can seeeeeeeeeeee, i got bangs with not so long hair now.
should i keep it this way? or should i let it grow and perm?
don't know eh.
how?

on (left) sidenote, i feeling feeling, wanna do a paragraph just for my dear stacey!
HAHAHAHAHAHHA!
my dear stacey! my 18th birthday with you was EXCELLENT!
the past 11 months with you = VERY BAGUS too!
thanks girl, for being there ALWAYS!
(like really always, you never fail to be there for me)
ever since metiga left singapore, she left an empty space too, i'm glad and i'm very sure to say that, you filled up that space for her : )
she will thank you for that, right metiga?
metiga and stacey, the most important girls in my life together with the rest of my girlfs,
i have no idea how to show my love, but i do love you all VERY VERY MUCH! : )

2009-11-15T20:50:00.002+08:00

peaceful.
(this is the 4th time i backspace the whole chunk of words, then i realised that this word fits the world i'm living in right now)

PEE-KA-BOO

2009-11-13T01:20:00.004+08:00

LIFE
HAS
BEEN
SUPERBLY
GOOD
: )
because
EVERY
SINGLE
thing
is
BAGUS.

2008-12-06T14:44:00.002+08:00

METIGA! JUST WHEN ARE YOU GONNA COME BACK, DO YOU KNOW I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR YOU EVER SINCE THE MOMENT YOU LEFT ME AT CHANGI AIRPORT, I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR SO LONG ALRDY, IT'S GONNA BEEN A YEAR ALRDY, I REALLY REALLY WANNA SEE YOU, I REALLY REALLY WANNA HUG YOU. I HAVE GOT SO MUCH TO TELL YOU BUT YOU COULDNT COME BACK THIS DEC, I WANNA SPEND XMAS WITH YOU LIKE LAST YEAR, WALKING DOWN THE STREET OF ORCHARD ROAD AND SNAPPING PICTURES EVERYWHERE, I WANNA DO SO MANY THINGS WITH YOU, JUST COME BACK SOON HAO BU HAO...

AND YOU ARE SO EVIL, BECAUSE YOU NEVER FAIL TO MAKE ME TEAR BITTERLY, YOU LEFT ME WITH SO MUCH MEMORIES THAT ALMOST EVERYWHERE I GO OR ANYTHING I SEE I WILL THINK OF YOU AND START CRYING LIKE NUTS, YOU LEFT ME WITH CHERRY YET I CANT PROVE IT TO YOU LIKE HOW MUCH I WANTED TO.

SEE, YOU EVIL METIGA!

nightmare

2008-12-03T01:07:00.001+08:00

whenever the image flashes through my mind,
i never fail to get goose bumps.
disturbed, really
and very afraid indeed

xmas's approaching

2008-12-01T12:34:00.006+08:00

xmas coming!
and i'm gonna make my xmas wish now (i know there's nothing such as xmas wish, but i'm referring to a xmas wishlist instead. HAHHAHA)
well, i'm dead bored in class, and this is the only thing i can think of to do to occupy my time lah, bear with me : )
so... indeed, i have got a very splendid wishlist:

i want more more dresses for xmas! for school! for nights out! for girlfs' outing!

i want more heels because i have only got 1 pathetic pair of heels currently
and also a few more pair of classic and staple pumps because i wear slippers everywhere and with anything. HAHAHHA

i want a new pair of havaianas because mine is totally... BLAH, fiction ruin it
and i need a pair of havaianas sandal for the sports hall, mine broke!

i want a new pair of birks, because mine also totally gone case alrdy (i wear it for like 3 years alrdy!)

i want new makeup pieces! er, well, i only got a few pathetic pieces of makeup lah

i want a new pair of ballet shoes

i want more kayak attires like more fbt top and shorts, swimwear shorts, booties

i want diving equipments like mask, fins first! or maybe wetsuit, full body length or just the shirt alone for PHUKET TRIP! i hope i hope

i want more board shorts so that i can wear it for dive trips and kayaking too (ripcurl got real pretty boardshorts!)

i want MP backpack (or is it bagpack? whatever lah)!

i want i want i want, never ending lah.
i shall stop daydreaming in class!
and anw, i don't celebrate xmas too, so i'm not entitled to xmas wishlist. TSK
byebye

MISSES

2008-11-29T15:52:00.004+08:00

i miss the sunshine
i miss the water
i miss diving
i miss kayak
i miss an even tannnnn-ner skin as compared to now
i miss the theatre
i miss the stage
i miss the makeup
i miss the costume
i miss dancing
i miss ballet
i miss all these extreme different kinda feelings
i miss...

and mummy just break my heart by telling me that i couldn't make it for the hongkong trip during january and we aren't going taiwan anymore

kalomes's logic

2008-11-26T10:09:00.001+08:00

according to kalomes,
divers cannot eat fish because we need to conserve.
-.-
meaning we cannot eat any other kinda seafood also
-.- -.-

2008-11-25T21:46:00.001+08:00

mummy says:
"it's either 1. phuket dive trip for or 2. 7 days taiwan, 5 days hongkong trip."
AIYO!
anw, i think leeting's gonna kill me when she see this piece of yet "wonderful" news to her

tied on

2008-11-19T23:05:00.002+08:00

SIAPA BABA
DANCE - MANNEQUIN
FLAME AWARDS
POL-ITE KAYAK HELPER

after these, i'll be as free as a bird

2008-11-16T14:54:00.001+08:00

i did something... which is so not me
: (
but i'm seriously not happy, i can't dance like that
: ( : (

muse

2008-11-13T02:42:00.003+08:00

curtains down
costume down
make up down
hair down
muse ended
reluctance...

thanks all who came
thanks for the wishes, hugs, flowers, balloons, chocolate

LOVES

"it's time to aim for a much higher level"

oh, on a sidenote,
some people may not know how much so much muse means to me,
it's like the sky of mine,
yet still...
well, forget it
instead, some people took me by surprise, thanks, greatly appreciated

long speech

2008-11-12T00:27:00.003+08:00

i'm finally officially 17
well, ya
i've been so tired this few days, and i know people love me because they planned surprises for me, they bought me presents and i don't care whether does it cost a bomb, or it cost nothing monetary at all
it's the thoughts that counts, it's the people who matters to me
i just wanna say,
THANKS A LOT PEOPLE,
FOR ALL THE SMS, WISHES ETC...
i love you people, just as much as you people love me!

to my dearestdancers:
eileen&yvonne&wiing, thanks for the 12am surprise! i really didn't expect to receive such surprise, at that point of time ah, cause muse is coming, everyone is busy, so... really didn't thought bout it before, maybe i didn't show it on my face and speech, but you girls really touches me, especially so when i can see that the 3 of your are kinda dead tired also. thanks a lot, really appreciate it a hell lot. love you girls many many! high high like sky, deep deep like ocean, loud loud like yvonne. thanks for the cake, big poster, card, you you and you, LOVES!
and to the others, thanks a lot also! for the sms, and the wishes on that day, my birthday wishes revolves you people also! your should be able to guess ah, i shaln't reveal my birthday wishes so that it will come true!
LOVE DANCERS, LOVES

to my dearestgirlfriends:
celeste&joan&april&wenxin, thanks ah thanks, for the ultimate retarded surprise, like blindfolding me and made me bang the wall. although i'm not very surprise by your surprise ah, cause your always msg the wrong person and send the ultimate surprise info to me, HAHAHAH. every year also eh! sure will have someone who will do that, ultimate. thanks for the kimono dress, i have been looking for one, and the dress your bought for me is real gorgeous, thanks for the night wear, although not sexy enough but decent ah, thanks for the top with many holes, although i think i will catch a cold wearing that and it's damm big! do i look that fat to your... but nvm, still can wear, and it's very pretty also! thanks for the bag, yesyes, after i take it out and place it on my shoulder, it's really very nice ah! and ya, i will really carry it all around ah. hahahha, and thanks for the cake, thanks for the pizza, thanks for the chickenwings, thanks for the balloons, thanks april for carrying out ALL her soft toys to decorate the place, thanks wenxin for the pig mug cause i know you my dabian i'm your zhuzhu, thanks celeste for ledding my path in the most ultimate way, thanks joan for calling everyone in rp to actually find out where am i. HAHAHHA, and i really realise i every year got different pattern, HAHAH, TOO BAD, my birthday, i'm the queen! and finally, thanks wenxinjoanceleste for waiting at rp for 2 freaking hours and i hope your didn't catch a cold cause it's kinda windy that night. ohya, i wanna say thanks to april again, for being so anxious over my birthday that you wish me on 9th november 12am, thanks man, really really, you are the ultimate, best!
and to my metiga, don't cry whenever you call me can! you jump i jump, you cry i cry, in the end, i cry infront of my friends ah! alamak. although you are not in singapore... but i can feel you ah, i know you will definately give me a big surprise with the rest also, yesyes, you definately will. i know i know, do don't worry bout it kay, i know you love me, and i still love you ah, will never ever change. you'll be coming back soon, i shall spend everyday with you! we shall go shop, go eat, go ikea, go lao di fang, AND DON'T FORGET! YOU OWE ME BIRTHDAY PRESENT KAY! don't think you can forget bout giving me one, and i wanna choose also! hahahaha, to you, don't need ke qi ah! call me soon kay, i wanna send you my performance video also!
LOVE GIRLFRIENDS! *DO WHATEVER KINDA OLD SCHOOL HAND SIGN WE ALWAYS DO
relac one corner ah. HAHAHHAHAHA! LOVES!

and to the rest(although i never name you guys out as an individual, but that doesn't mean i don't care)! thanks and LOVES, much much

anw, MUSE IS TOMORROW! TO-MO-RR-OW!
cannot believe it seriously! cannot eh, it's really tomorrow!
and once again, thankssssss for those who's coming to support!
JOAN CELESTE WENXIN SYLVIA
JESSIE VANESSA LEETING SANNIE
EVELYN BERNICE
REYES XIN YING WENCAI ZIQING
LLOYD AND GIRLF
ROY SB
CAILING DANITZA WEILING MINGZHI
JON
LIONDANCERS(although i don't know who your are really supporting ah, but i know your will be coming and i will be performing, HAHAHAH)
RYAN SMLJ(although i know you will not be watching me ah, but someone else *raise eyebrow, but nvm! you showed your support during our rehearsal period)
i'm giving my 100%, and that's the best of the best of me, to you guys, and to show that i really am very thankful of your coming.
SEE YOU GUYS TOMORROW!

and so, good night, freaking tiredddddddd

4 days left

2008-11-08T00:30:00.004+08:00

if there's 2 ellelowyihan on earth,
of course i will be more than willing to send 2 to 2 different rehearsal.
but there's only 1,
so here comes prioritization,
i did i did, of course i did and i still do,
and since there is ONLY 4 days to muse,
and there's lots of things not done yet,
i should concentrate on muse right, common sense.
not as if i never ever voice out that i wanna be out
now what?
fk up
you girls will never understand how impt is muse to me
well, never you girls never bother, and don't bother also
how great, the unity of performers who are gonna dance together

oh, and the best
i have got so many advance birthday surprises
like, my bloody hell laptop CRASH completely, he needs acer alrdy
and blahblahblah, never ending, but none is good, for a good cause, a good start, a good news, NONE
thanks ah thanks ellelowyihan,
you will have a very "wonderful" long awaited 17th birthday this year
wooohoooo~~ *clap clap clap

2008-11-01T14:55:00.002+08:00

halloween ytd night was fun,
all because of the company i had,
i really love this few girls/dancers
and of course, including those who didn't go ah, i spend my almost everyday with them can
MMMMMMMUACKS
i will be so not used to not seeing them for a very long time, let's say... more than 2 days
ahahhahahha
on a sidenote,
4 full days stuck in school for
DANCE/REHEARSAL/TRAINING/PREVIEW/BLAHBLAH/WHATEVER
totally sucks
anw, i got chase out of house this morning by my dearest mummy to go for ballet class
HELL
kay, *knock out

hectic week

2008-10-28T22:48:00.003+08:00

i will appreciate it, if someone just pick up a gun and shoot me in my head
or take a chopper and chop me up

indeed indeed

on a public holiday

2008-10-27T18:54:00.005+08:00

deepavali today, rest day for me, happy deepavali ganesh

ahahahhaha

well, no link, i know

i just realised that it's been so long ever since i do something constructive, for me & me

let's say... draw, acrylic paint, visits to artfriend...
how sad,

i seems to have lost the ability to do all these, guess it's time to find it back

so anw, this was taken... by eileentan, that lamer

but imagine my hair like that, i think i can hide things inside, convenient

HAHAHHAH

i know it's uber retarded and fugly, but that's the point

and then timbre during the weekend

then my cousin together with 2 niece 1 nephew came over to visit

some will say, "how happening"

i will say, "not"

and i will continue with, "tue wed thur fri sat sun dance, that's happening"

ohyea, so, happening

happening wit muscle aches, injuries here and there

welllllll, no pain no gain

this is it

ciao

2008-10-23T00:28:00.000+08:00

MY RIGHT BIG TOE HURTS SERIOUSLY : (
ORH CHEH LAH
HA LEH LU YA

DAYANG

2008-10-20T00:36:00.008+08:00

the fish shitting

spot the turtle!

yesyes, my fav! longlong bridge

papa frog/ lester daddy

ATTENTION: BABY WHALE SHARK!

ESTIMATED TO BE 5M LONG!

looking forward to every meal :)

morning 7am face

at least, this is the only thing which can destress me now...
serious diving serious fun
every dive is a new dive
no beer no dive (lloyd's line, HA)

a note: all these are still now enough to show how beautiful it really is

crucial 2 months

2008-10-18T14:32:00.004+08:00

MON WED THUR FRI SAT SUN - DANCE
and dance end approx. 10pm for zaini's rehearsal
and after that i will be so stress that i will eat and eat, kfc, mcdonald, burgerking, all the junk food available. hungry also eat, not hungry also eat, whatever the case, just eat, eat to stop thinking of dance steps/blockings/lines/etc/etc for the moment,
because 24/7 everyday, my mind is all filled with dance,
i just so happen to get some free time (like when i'm travelling from places to places) to pop music into my ears, and i'm so frighten that i'm still thinking of zaini's chreo when i'm listening to SOME OTHER songs,
i went for ballet rehearsal tdy, i'm doing litao's chreo, but all i'm thinking of, is still ZAINI'S CHREO
what's happening.............
i seriously can't stop thinking of zaini's chreo,
be it on bus, walking, ballet, stoning, class, breakfast/lunch/dinner, tv-ing, whatsoever whatsoever.
and my eyebrow seems to be stuck in that awful position like when someone is deep in thoughts about something, but yea, it gets to relax sometimes, but it will still go back to that awful position, making me look so damm freaking (*&^%$#%^&*(&^%$#
a lot ask:"are you ok?"
yes, i'm totally okay, this is normal, i doubt i will die from these anw
and ballet rehearsal, yes, 2 items: THE SEARCH & PARADISE
i remember zaini told the class last thur:
"you guys can't freaking have so many other performance when you aren't anybody here yet."
i totally agree, that's why i tried to get out of 'paradise', i didn't wanna drag my ballet girls down either, but guess it's a tad too late to even suggest this, i will have to stick with it no matter what, for my ballet girls, for li tao, for the concert which just so happen in the same mnth as muse, for myself, to be responsible.
i'm a crybaby lah, i cried on bus tdy, i can cry anywhere now,
my modern dancers one by one getting injured and all, my heart ache for them,
if i have got a wonder wand, i will wish for all of them to be well and alright and everything will be good for them and nobody should be sad and everyone shall anticipate for muse happily
but i know i don't have one, what i can do is so little also,
i don't wanna tell my dancers what i feel, what i'm troubled about and i'm really troubled because i don't even know what i'm troubled about, i see them hurt, i don't wanna cry infront of them because it hurts me also, i don't wanna cry infront of them because of me, myself, mine also, i don't wanna affect their mood, i don't wanna make them worry for me, they have got enough of worries
seriously don't know who to turn to because my girlfs are so busy and i haven't talk to them for so long and they didnt come and ask whether am i alive still and maybe they thought i'm enjoying life and dance which i'm seriously not, rangers are busy, practically everyone is all busy, how can i further trouble anyone...
in the very end i will just come home and cry and cry
how i wish metiga is here at this instance
well, guess if anyone see me on the street anytime this 2 mnths, i will look so lost
i'm thinking so much so that i don't even know what to think bout
i'm gg nuts lah, everyone is gg nuts also
shall we survive together?
yes, we shall

eileen - take care of your ankle
yvonne - remember to eat 3 meals a day please
wing - take care of your knee
wiing - take care of your toes and everything
eunice - take care of your back
angie - keep healthy!
lynn - i love you girl, BIG HUG

fat issue

2008-10-16T14:20:00.001+08:00

mummy say i fat alrdy
mummy say i fat alrdy
mummy say i fat alrdy
mummy say i fat alrdy
mummy say i fat alrdy
mummy say i fat alrdy
mummy say i fat alrdy
mummy say i fat alrdy
mummy ask me not to eat so much
mummy ask me not to eat so much
mummy ask me not to eat so much
mummy ask me not to eat so much
mummy ask me not to eat so much
mummy ask me not to eat so much
mummy ask me not to eat so much
mummy ask me not to eat so much
mummy ask me not to eat so much

visual aid (in case my blog really becomes super boring with words)

2008-10-13T00:30:00.003+08:00

thanks ah eileentan, for the oh-so-nice pics. AHEM. HAHAHHA

ROOM 108

kinda gay eh

but at least there's nice seats still

wake up call

2008-10-12T19:34:00.002+08:00

well, guess i've been playing too much for the past few weeks
but was worth it, clubbing pubbing shoppings etcetc were all very fun
the clique was fun as well
but think it's time i return to the focus of my life, the things i put myself committed into
i received a wake up call today,
which was tears rolling down my cheeks
yes, those are my wake up calls

i shall assure myself as much as possible that i will not:
miss anymore kayak dry/wet training
miss anymore ballet rehearsal for modern ballet pointe
miss any of zani's rehearsal/marcus's training
throw all the dive matters to the back of my mind

"wake up elle, it's time to wake up,
you know you have got even more impt things to attend to."

well, although i know getting myself fully committed will led me to having less time to spend with my friends and dancers, but at least, i know me myself, is back on track, is carrying all the responsibilities that i'm suppose to.

BLAH

2008-10-10T21:11:00.003+08:00

HAHAAHHAHAH
today what date?
10th oct!
yesyes! 1 more mnth to my sweet 17! (sweet 17 sounds gay, i know)
am i excited?
YES OF COURSE! that day got rehearsal, of course excited -.-
and so, 1 mnth 2 days more to MUSE.
i'm more excited bout that instead, although rehearsals are seriously KILLING and STRESSFUL
like yesterday, i was damm freaking stress, my whole face crumble up like apple crumble alrdy.
but wellwellwell, no pain no gain no pain no gain no pain no gain.
anw, MUSE, my lovely families and friends will be coming to support
MUCH LOVE LOVE LOVE!
oh, and i'm suppose to design what i wanna wear on that day, so maybe i will describe to people who's coming so that your can look out for me (in case can't find me ah, like celestewenxinjoanapril very goondo one, everytime cannot tell which one is me)
anw2, MUSE! is super impt to me, i will seriously take good care of myself this coming mnth, like preventing myself from any injuries or falling sick or whatsoever
JIAYOU!
I CAN DO IT!
as your can see, i'm being so random here,
like tdy, mass ******(HUSH HUSH!), just a call away
LOL! yaya, just a call away, some retarded said this to me
ohya! my costume! not done yet
I WANNA WEAR TUTU! TUTU TUTU TUTU TUTU!
i've been yearning for it for like so many years!
i'm gonna wear tutu this time round, i don't care!
WAHAHAHAHHAHA
but well, guess tutu is every ballerina's dream, or specifically ELLE'S DREAM
hahahahahahahha
ohya, and my birthday right, in case sooooommmmeeeeee people wanna know where am i ah,
i will be having school! which i most probably won't pon,
then i got 2 break time, 10 - 11 and 12 - 2.30
then after school, i have got rehearsal! from 5 all the way till 9 or 9.30
so, ya, do your own estimation ah...
HAHAHHA!
kaykaykay, thick skin, i know, but i'm saving trouble for sooommmeeeeeee people what.
HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHA
haiyoyo, 1 mnth,
I CAN DO IT!

anwanw, gotham penthouse tml?
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA!

2008-10-09T00:09:00.001+08:00

IT'S LADIES NIGHT TONIGHT!
AHHHH!
BUT I DECIDED TO BE GOOD,
AND STAY AT HOME,
AND MUG FOR UT.
BAGUS.

2008-10-07T20:48:00.004+08:00

take me away to a faraway land,
throw me back to mother nature,
please.

when everything shall return to square1,
when a mask covers it all,
when everything fails to fall into place.

weekends

2008-10-05T13:44:00.004+08:00

friday night was spent at phuture/zouk

notbadnotbad

fun

but dbl o like more fun eh

anw, according to eileentan,

zouk = dui dui dui (techno)

phuture & dbl o = bom bom bom (r&b)

wahlau! -.- -.- -.-

oh, i drank and seh, damm lousy ah!

but thanks to those there who held on to me and eileentan who kept hugging me ah

LOVELOVE!

then the next day, little cousin came over to celebrate her bday!
happy ah she, many many presents

she loves carebear
kids are alway kids

SO CUTE!

(wenxin! feel free to save enen's pics if you can't resist her cuteness ah, i won't mind one.
HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAA)

2008-09-26T16:26:00.001+08:00

WEEKEND GETAWAY

DIVING AT

PULAU DAYANG!

I'M COMING!!

WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO!

2008-09-25T01:13:00.002+08:00

now that my ballet exam is over (WHOO!)
and the trip with much anticipation is just 2 days later,
i'm freaking sick
sick
sick
fever
flu
sorethroat
whatever that comes
-.-
-.-
-.-
-.-
-.-"""

2008-09-20T02:22:00.002+08:00

i have got one upcoming performance this nov, 12th
rp modern dance
but this time things will be so different,
because there wouldn't be metiga sitting down there watching me dance and supporting me
and coming to find me after the whole performance end and give me a hug and wait for me to change and everything and go chill out for awhile afterwhich.

met ah met, can i reserve a ticket for you and really see you here?

2008-09-15T23:51:00.001+08:00

23rd sep - ballet exam
26, 27, 28th sep - pulau dayang trip

i didn't realise that all these will take place next week, i thought it will still be quite awhile more

ciao, bed for me

being back to browngreenblue, sea

2008-09-14T12:21:00.002+08:00

the only thing that i'm looking forward to and very looking forward to and can't wait for it to come will be the leisure dive trip to pulau dayang this mnth end
everything else, nah

2008-09-14T02:06:00.000+08:00

i really need some time off

2008-09-12T18:24:00.004+08:00

ALL THE BEST BRO! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE RETURN HOME SAFE AND SOUND! AND, DON'T MISS ME TOO MUCH YA! MUACKS!

anw, i'm selling this few items:

prices nego

ALL ARE BRAND NEW!

17" across, 33" down
$24 mailed
credits to agirlslabel

17" across 30" down

$27 mailed

credits to twistandkiss

$18 mailed

credits to flirtydolly

email me at ellelowyihan@hotmail.com or you may just tag my tagboard

CHEERS!

2008-09-09T23:06:00.002+08:00

kayak land training (meaning we do running and stuff like that, not paddle on the ground) was cool tdy
i ran one freaking superduper big circle from school to the park and idk to where but i know that i ran for a very long distance + some circuits(is this how it is spell?) exercises
well, managable, goood
BUT
the worse, no, the WORST thing is,
I GOT 4 BLISTERS AFTER THAT!
2 LEFT 2 RIGHT, JUST NICE
2 BURST, 2 BUBBLE
COOL OR WHAT!
and it's freaking big and freaking painful
it's on my big toes! so now i can't walk with ease and it hurts somehow somewhat
HALEHLUYA
TIRED
good night

2008-09-09T11:28:00.000+08:00

i don't like you eh seriously

problem with hair

2008-09-07T14:04:00.001+08:00

i think it's time for a new haircut
my hair now, freaking messy
who wanna go for a new haircut with me?
or any recommendation?

2008-09-05T21:14:00.009+08:00

OH, HOW I MISS THEM

photos from w14h chalet

2008-09-04T15:22:00.001+08:00

poker queen!

me is strong! ahaha

bullied!

poking marshmellows!

theres more photos with clarissa lah, but that (*&^^&*&^%^& just wouldnt wanna upload photos! TSKTSK*

2008-09-02T16:14:00.002+08:00

2 more hours before i say byebye to my workplace
i'm so dammmmmmmmmmm tired!
i didn't catch lizards or rats last night, seriously
but i guess it's the accumulation of the not-enough-hours-of-sleep every night for the past few months which results me feeling tired everyday without fail
nevertheless, today today tdy marks the last day of holiday
i ma goin bac tu sch tomolo
tomolo
tomolo
tomorrow if you can't read
yes, tomorrow
and in a new class with new people, new facilitators
ohhhhhhhhhhh howwwwwwwww i hate such kinda feeling
like just when i'm used to w14h, CHANGE!
okayokay, so now i'm relocated to w45d
it's good, in the sense of the location, cause the ultimate foodcourt is just 2 storeys down
which is ofcourse good news for me, i love to eat, a cow everyday in school
okay, back to the class thingy
so next which is also now, i will try to get used to w45d, but i predict that once i'm so used to them, CHANGE!
WTF!
this is the problem
a freaking big problem
i hate this
i is anti-social (to a certain extent)
but at the same time, i would love meeting new friends
AHAHAHHA BLAH
WTS! contradicting
anwanw, tomorrowwwwwwwww
i'm also gonna meet my GIRLSSSSSS
it's been quite awhile
i think..... the last time i saw the whole gang tgt wassss a mnth? or mnthsss ago
that's bad right
i know
but it's really kinda difficult to meet up altogether when all of us have got different schedule and very busy life (LOVE LIFE FOR THEM)
oh, speaking of that
all of them are attached alrdy (YEY!)
like
april - adrian
wenxin - shawn
celeste - mario (i'm not lying bout the name)
sylvia - jj
joan - welll.... i think she is... 1/2 1/2 lah
so left me me me left on the shelve
AHAHAHHAH
i make it sounds as if i'm sucha poor thing
but NO!
happy this way, gonna be happy this way till the day i found the guy for me
in the meanwhile
i'm gonna dive dance kayak for all i want
ohhhhhhhhhh! there's the DAYANG TRIP WAITING FOR ME THIS END OF SEP!
can't wait can't wait
pretty excited, i heard dayang is prettier than tioman
just hope i wouldn't faint at the sight of the beautiful island and the feeling of being surrounded by mother nature
i love mother nature
seriously
nothing beats the beauty of it (i'm talking bout nature beauty)
that's why i love diving so much
as for kayak.... i like, but not to the extent of loving it yet
as for dance... i think it's sorta like part of my life alrdy
well.... i don't know
i so don't like dancing nowadays
wing told me that that's temporary
i hope so
i wouldn't wanna give up after like 11-12 years of dancing
anwanw, i'm drifting away
school! yes!
sad to say, i'm the first to start school tomorrow!
HOW SAD!
eileenwingangieyvonnelynnwiing or whosoever who's not year1 get one more day of rest
HAIS!
oh, talking bout eileen
i miss the pub-ing with her ytd, SADDED!
i wonder when will the next trip be since school's starting tml
SOON OKAY EILEEN SOON!
i'm so bored now, and i'm so tired of typinggggggg
i'm gonna update with photos tonight, once i get all the photos from wing
those photos....
will prove that my leg can really do the 180degree stunts
ciao

1 STAR KAYAKER

2008-09-01T20:36:00.002+08:00

YESYES! *SCREAMMMMMMMMM

okay, I'm certified as a 1 STAR KAYAKER!

well, although 1 star only lah, but stepping stone to more stars or coaching cert right.

soooooooooo, kayak = beach = sea = under sun (consecutive 2 days!) = CHAO TA AGAIN!

I'm damm chao ta lah now, and I'm peeling, and school's like starting the day after

NOOOOOOOOOO! I DON'T WANNA GO SCHOOL!

if it's gg back to W14H, I don't mind lah, since they had alrdy seen my ugliest moment

I'm refering to times when I do stupid actions or emotions or talk retardedly

so, I don't mind, BUT NOW

it's a completely new class, I'm scare can!

later they laugh at me, HAIS!

ohoh! and I find myself more muscular also!

my armsssssssss

and I H A T E I T

I don't wanna be a muscular elle

muscular elle

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEW!

wellwell, nvm

wouldn't

quit

kayak

now

and I have got a kayak camp in school this fri and sat. YEY!

anw, I find myself so longwinded

CIAO

PHOTOS

2008-08-30T00:23:00.005+08:00

I'm so freaking hungry at that point of time, can't wait to attack that plate of clamari!

AND YES! THE QUEEN OF THE DAY! EILEEN TAN!

I LOVE YOU LOUD LOUD LIKE YVONNE!

EILEEN ELLE ANGIE
WING YVONNE WIING

WITH LYNN

I think this is weird and funny, like, RJ and us, RJ? us? us and RJ?

AHAHAH, kay, you guys won't get what I'm trying to say anw

at that moment, lynn was whinning bout something (I think)
then I was there laughing
then this was how this spastic photo came bout -.-

qiang jing tou!

wiing also ah! TSK TSK

LOVE(S)

*NOTICE: LOOK AT WHAT EILEEN IS TRYING TO DO. LOL!

anw, I was just thinking about what am I gonna do when all my loves graduate from RP, and leave moderndance (keypoint: AND LEFT ME ALL ALONE HERE!)

hais, it's not really a good thing to be the youngest, I really hate to see them leave lah, dance classes will sure be boringgggggggg

how I wish I can keep them inside my pocket (like what eileen wanted to do to me)

ANW, I LOVE YOU ALL! REALLY REALLY! WITH ALL MY HEARTS!

2008-08-26T12:51:00.002+08:00

HAPPY (BELATED) SEXY 19TH BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST EILEEN TAN!

I LOVE YOU MANYMANY!

MUACKSSSSSSSSSSSS!

so anw, it doesn't matter whether it's belated or not, because i spent eileen's bday together with her! all the way till 4am in the morning!!

kinda crazy ytd lah, (they) went for modern dance, but i didn't dance cause i'm not feeling super well, then went fish&co with the dancers, then went over to Harry's bar afterwhich to chill out.

OKAY! that Harry's bar part was kinda freaky! >.< !!!

we couldn't just drink right, so we played a game, the DARE game...

ahahahahhaha

ya, okay, fullstop

shaldn't elaborate

anwanw! i really hope my dearest eileen tan had fun ytd morning, afternoon, night, midnight, tdy morning

andand, she's gg to happy again tdy

ahahahahahhahahahaha

well, HAPPY (BELATED) BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN!

ciao! i'm off to chalet (this is damm freaking tiring)

11.54 am

2008-08-24T11:55:00.001+08:00

what i'm yearning/wishing/craving for now:

free

kayak for the day

2008-08-23T21:04:00.004+08:00

went for kayak pool training this morning (YES EILEEN TAN! I WENT!)
was real fun! and challenging to pick up the basics of it,
like rowing in a straight line (I SERIOUSLY CAN'T DO IT!)
i can't really control lah, i sucks! but partly because the school kayak kinda hard to control (AIYER! AHAHAHA)
beside that, we did the capsize drill tdy, capsize then pull out the "skirt"
the "skirt"... well... something which... aiya, lazy to elaborate
NO WAIT, capsize, knock on our hull 3 freaking times, pull out the "skirt" then exit to the front of the kayak (shit, i forgot what's the name for it)
knock 3 times is to test our water confidence lah, i think.... okay lah, just a lil nervous
andand, we did the buddy rescue or smth like that lah
whereby we capsize but friend's kayak nearby, so instead of quick exit, use the front of friend's kayak to gently flip back my kayak
YES! THAT ONE I CAN! my hip and leg strong! ahahahahhahah
anw! met part of the ig people and they are really very nice and friendly and helpful
they look a lil scary when i first saw that bunch, but they turn out to be real nice
that's good that's good
friends are real impt when coming down to the committment of an ig
JUST LIKE MY WONDERFUL MODERN DANCERS!
so i guess i will be looking forward to moremoremore kayak training, be it dry or pool or lower seletar (CAN'T WAIT)
ohya, and i haven't really know the kayak ig people yet, like exchanging of numbers and msn or whatever shit, yes! next session! i will do some bonding =)
and so... i'm gg to find food (I EAT ULTRA LOT NOWADAYS) although i ate mum's cooking just now
CIAO

oh, wait
i went to had supper and eileen&her friends ytd midnight
we went geylang! and ate dimsum!
and come back with a super freaking bloated tummy
but nice leh! tsktsktsk
i'm so tempted to eat supper nowadays
anw, a new grp of people i met ytd midnight also, they are also funnnnnn people
erm, but more to funny people
HA

HOLA!

2008-08-21T01:06:00.002+08:00

HELLO! I'M BACK!

okayokay, back to the trip

KL trip was good, real good

the 200 bucks was really well spent

yesyes! every single cent is well spent

and I'm left with 50cent RM

COOL OR WHAT!

AHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

anw, shopping was good

car rides was good(ER)

food was good

sight-seeing was good

everything was good lah seriously

and from one place to another, I'm sure to be in a car, resting my butt comfortably

like from woodlands to JB, JB to sannie's place,

then the next morning sannie's place to Larkin to take bus, then bus ride to KL, then KL there's sannie's friend's car

so the car = my foot for the next 3 days

then from KL to JB, JB to sannie's place to pick up some stuff, sannie's place to custom, custom board clarissa's dad's car, then home

no wonder my butt's getting fatter and fatter and bigger and bigger!

ahahahahahahaahahahhahahahha

I bought quite a number of pieces of clothes

let's say... 8 pieces + 1 bag + 1 legwarmer + 1 belt + 1 bangle

SEE!! WELL SPENT RIGHT! AHAHAHAHHAHA

and that 200 includes hotel stay and whatever things which need moneh

*DING DING

tempted to go KL huh

AHAHAHAHHAHA

we sorta decided to go taiwan next year this time, rangers! time to save up! ahahahaha!

and next mnth I'm gg DAYANG! on a dive trip

SUPER EXCITED ALSO!

and I realised that I'm out of town at least once every mnth

july - tioman

aug - KL

sep - dayang

oct - ??

nov - tioman

dec - ??

jan or feb - taiwan

kay, now I also don't know whats my motive of writing this whole shit down

anw, I'm gonna slp!

dance tml

everything's back to normal (hopefully)

GOOD NIGHT

bye

2008-08-17T14:10:00.003+08:00

BACK ON WEDNESDAY

gg on a short getaway

I'm gonna be fully charged when I come back

and all ready to dance once again

and sorry wing and eileen! have been ignoring your msn msgs, sms, calls... didn't mean it

BLAHBLAH

2008-08-15T15:58:00.008+08:00

my

(OHSHIT, JUST WHEN I TYPE THAT 'my', MY PORKY FLOSS DROP ON MY KEYBOARD AND SLIP IN! kkk, I can't do anything bout it)

so as I was saying... my sales tdy was kinda account for alrdy, all thanks to a lady who bough 4 tops from me. ahahahahahahhahaha
so I can sort of relax a lil bit alrdy, ahahahahaha!
and I'm super bored! so I shall start my posting of photos now! now now now!

my boyfriend(HI BROTHER)

I find this stupid&funny, thanks ah hazel -.-

W14H

Last day of school

then rangers came over to my place after school, they took lots of photos with my webcam, but I shall only post this, because leeting look EXCEPTIONALLY CHIO!
(I think she will kill me when she see this, but nvm)
WED, TO PULAU TEKONG
LEETING EVERYTIME CALM LIKE COOLSHIT

I was just trying to be funny. AHA

jiexi look EXCEPTIONALLY CHIO in this photo also
kkk, I'm hungry, gonna find food.

ohya, people! please vist this shop and support as well:

http://beauty-pie.blogspot.com/

THANKS

work work work.

2008-08-15T12:00:00.003+08:00

what I'm surviving on tdy

coffee, hot floss bread, hot floss bread

ha leh lu ya

and a bad thing to note:

I'm surviving my day on coffee more often nowadays,

almost every now&then

see:

HAIS. NO GOOD NO GOOD!

anw, I got a lot of rubbish photos to post, but not now, later.
when I have got nothing to do, then I shall start my posting to keep myself occupied. WAHAHAHAHA! and guess what, I brought lots of stuff to work tdy, to make sure that I wouldnt start nodding my head(falling aslp) like what happened before. In my bag: DS, DS MEMORY CARD READER, ORGANIZER, LAPTOP, LAPTOPCHARGER.

MAMAMIA!

2008-08-13T22:50:00.003+08:00

When everything starts to turn ugly...

wordy post

2008-08-12T23:40:00.004+08:00

Hazel:"ELLE! BE BRAVE!"
Elle:"CANNOT LAH CANNOT!"
Hazel:"YOU CAN ONE LAH HAIYO!"
Elle:"REALLY CANNOT LAH! NONONONO!"

Well, I wouldn't go into details about the whole thing, but basically, it's about me not being courageous&confident&brave enough. Hazel really cheer me on today, but somehow somewhat, that wouldn't do. Like, if you know that going ahead with something brings you nowhere, and something may perish due to that, will you still go ahead with it? Hell NO! Then Hazel said I can do it, because I really can, but guess I myself know the situation well. I wouldn't wanna plunge into something which I know that it-wouldn't-be-happening, FATHOPE. But again, this is something which I really can't seems to place aside no matter what, it's like an automatic recorder which will play everytime I happen to bypass it. It's seriously not a very good feeling, really really. And I think this is the 87654321345678976543456 times which I told myself to place it aside/throw it away/dump it, but it doesn't seems like I am listening to myself, or should I say my heart doesn't seems to be listening to my mind. Wtf, I wanna get the hell out of this whole shit pleaseeeeeeee...

On a sidenote,
Today marks the last day of sem1 OFFICIALLY. So... yea, W14H is gonna split next sem and I, again, need to meet new people, new faci, new environment. What will it be like? I wouldn't dare to think of it to be something very nice yet because the disappointment level will be dreadhigh if things happen the other way round instead. Thinking back, I kinda miss W14H, the fun and everything. ESP MY RANGERS. I seriously can't imagine what will the next sem be like without you girls, you girls are the motivation of -school- and -breaktime- AHAHAHHA. But I guess my rangers will be happpy because there wouldn't be someone whining most of the time, bring them to eat and eat and eat and stuff them with food and food and food and food. They shall all slim down and I shall continue to fatten myself. ahahahahah. Anw, rangers came over tdy, and we watched olympics, we were shouting and screaming away! YESYES, this is what it should be like when watching olympics can! ahahahhahaha. Hais.. well... rp... policy... have to learn to adapt to it, if not it will be damm hurting during the end of every sem. Oh, then I thought of UNI, I thought of her saying that she wouldn't like to get too attached to anyone because... because... kay, I forgot about the conclusion, but yea, me trying to put that into practice now, think it will somehow cure abit of heartbreaks now&then, here&there.
Tomorrow marks the first day of holiday. I should be happy that holiday's finally here right, but... nope, not so, not really, not at all. This holiday will be superhyper busy for me, there seems to be something happening every single day. Be it moderndance, ballet, kayak, work, chalet, KL trip, blahblah... whatever... HAIS, it's gonna be yet another tiring month. Ohwell, I deserve it, because I choose all this. keyword: CHOOSE. Yesyes, so my whining shall stop here. NVM, shall... deem it as a very interesting&happening mnth then.

Pictures up tomorrow.

goodnight.

48hrs?

2008-08-12T01:06:00.004+08:00

ate Mcdonald with my dancers at ard 10+pm,
how sinful

my fridge has got many things stack up and it look as though it's gonna collaspe any time soon,
it's at its peak period

I had ballet in the noon and modern dance in the evening,
I was really jelly-ing during modern dance

kayak training tml - cancelled -,
how sad, I was looking towards it

tml marks the last day of sem1,
last day with the class W14H,
I will miss them, of course,
and I think I will suffocate and die without my rangers next sem

my bed is seducing me,
good night

problem with letter 'A'

2008-08-10T14:10:00.001+08:00

the letter 'A' on my keyboard is dropping off eh,
now only left half of the 'A'
HOW AH?

I SAW RAINBOW TODAY! RIGHT AT MY DOORSTEP!

2008-08-10T00:16:00.004+08:00

CAN SEE CAN SEE?
it's okay if you can't -.-
cause I took these only after a few mins of admiring it and when it starts to fade off
BUT IT'S REAL PRETTY!
and it's almost right at my doorstep lah! like the angle in the 2nd pic
*faint

wellwellwell...
today was well spent, I think
I had my brunch over at sakae sushi
yesyes, good food at the start of the day,
no wonder I'm getting fatter and fatter everyday!
and then my aunt and cousin came over
she ah,
can never stop moving/jumping,
can never stop talking at a super high pitch,
can never stop eating
(she ate mango pudding, donuts then a bowl of rice with dishes, drank a bowl of soup, ate 2 bowls of rock melon. *GASP)
she's 5 years old only eh, can really eat eh seriously!
like cousin, like little cousin *sigh...
oh, then they left
so I went over to eileen's family BBQ,
a lot a lot of people!
people mountain people sea eh -.-

so that's allllllll
today I met up with a lot of people
and I ate non stop
AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH

and I'm so damm freaking tired now
there's work tml!!! 10.30 - 10
HA LEH LU YA!
AH MI TU FU!

GOOD NIGHT!

YOU ARE SO GONNA FALL ASLEEP LOOKING AT MY TONS OF PHOTOS

2008-08-07T09:27:00.009+08:00

I AM STRONG! *MUSCLE MUSCLE!

AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

NOW I KNOW HOW MUCH A CAP CAN DO TO ME -.-

WINGWING YTD!

for the day

2008-08-05T23:30:00.006+08:00

ZOMG! lloyd told me the tadpoles are gg MANADO for DIVING during end of aug!
ANDAND! HE ASKED ME ALONG! but it freaking cost 1.158...
*PING PIANG PING PIANG!
HEARTBREAK
nvm! there will still be more chances...
right now, what's most important will be to solidify my basic
thenthen I will be guided along the way
PERSEVERENCE!
YESYES! THAT'S THE KEYWORD NOW!

Anw, this is my RJ for the day:
(keypoint to take note: the module for today is SCIENCE, and the faci is JAMESLIM)

After 15 weeks what advice from your facilitator has been most helpful to you to develop yourself as a PBL learner?

WTS
I would say that there's nothing from him that's helpful

YOU ARE SO GONNA BE BORED LOOKING AT MY FREAKING PHOTOS

2008-08-05T19:50:00.010+08:00

TODAY WAS SCIENCE, IT'S REALLY HORRIBLE

MY TEAM CATCH NO BALL OF WHAT'S HAPPENING LAH

IN FACT, WE DON'T EVEN SEE ANY BALL FLYING TOWARDS US

-.-

SO WE CHAO CLASS!

AND I GOT REALLY BORED, SO I STARTED...

AHAHAHA...

YA...

THEN THEN, BENJY AND EILEEN ALSO CHAO CLASS!

SO I WENT OVER TO TRCC TO CONTINUE ROTTING...

OKAY, NOW LOOK AT THIS:

THEN LOOK AT THIS:
EH HELLO BENJY! NO SLEEPING PLEASE -.-

OKAY, DONE, FULLSTOP.

END OF STORY

THE END

THANK YOU

BYEBYE

2008-08-02T00:42:00.003+08:00

I saw UNI tdy, and we gave each other a really tight hug
I starts to feel that its been awhile ever since I last chill and catch up with some dear friends of mine, and even including my girlfs

besides all these,
I really feel that everything came crashing down so fast, so packed this few days or week
it's like theres no oxygen
(then someone suggested that he will hand me an oxygen tank -.-)
HELLO!
even during diving, it's only compressed air can -.-
but it only things would be as easy as putting on the second-stage and breath...

Auntie for that moment

2008-07-31T16:01:00.004+08:00

today there's some conservation event in school,

then there's a few mountains of clothes...

then someone announce:

"as your can see, there's no cashier, because everything is free!"

keyword: FREE

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHA

Being SUPER BROKE and auntie, I spotted a few vintage pieces of clothes so...

I WENT TO DIG AND DIG!

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHA

kay, it's super auntie, I know I know!

but for that moment... it's alright lah

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA

PRESENTING TO YOU...

HAHAHAHHAHAHHA!

POWER RANGERS in blue (sannie, not funny kay, is top blue, not scarf blue -.-)

2008-07-30T23:14:00.005+08:00

Next week mark the last week of sem1,

what am I gonna do without you girls next sem?!

CRYYYYYYYYYYYY

2008-07-28T22:51:00.002+08:00

I feel like that bottom bread of this hamburger now,

with all the many different issues holding me down,

with all the many different issues bothering me,

with all the many different issues which I don't feel good over,

with all the many different issues which I need to do,

with all the many different issues which never seems to end,

but it doesn't seems like anyone understand,

or anyone bother at all,

I(wish) might as well be dead

I wouldn't wanna whine here,

because maybe things will be safer with me,

maybe I need a getaway,

maybe I can find a way out of all these shits,

maybe I will be able to find a solution,

maybe I can do better,

but... keyword: maybe

it sounds so uncertain, I hate this kinda feeling, SERIOUSLY

I'm gonna cry any sooner, if this hamburger's gonna get any taller

or shall I say a few drops of tears had alrdy fell,,

because my strength aren't enough to support

HELLO VANESSA SANNIE JESSIE (CARISSA LEETING)

2008-07-27T12:18:00.004+08:00

HOGAY, THIS IS WHAT WE NORMALLY DO WHEN WE ARE BORED IN CLASS
HA HA HA HA HA
POWER RANGERS, WE TAKE GROUP PIC NEXT WEEK KAY?
I'M GONNA GIVE YOUR A SURPRISE
HA HA HA HA HA
MUACKS!
YOU GIRLS REALLY MAKE MY DAY!
EVEN BY JUST LOOKING AT THE FUNNY PICS WE HAD TGT
I WONDER WHAT AM I GONNA DO WHEN WE CHANGE CLASS
AWWWWWWWWWWW >.<