ELLE's

last week, last last week, i cannot remember how last it was,
that it has been very "exciting" for me.
have been fighting (quarel + argue + shouting + crying), "exciting" indeed?
so i made one big fucking round, to reassure myself that he's someone so dear to me that i can never say 'give up' so easily to, very "smart" indeed.
i love you my honey bun.
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so now.me.now.

i'm temporarily jobless
(because my shop shift back to office & anna is still trying to pull out something for the girls)

i'm not dancing
(because of H1N1, all activities stop, TRCC stop)

i'm not going back for ballet, yet
(because i'm still fooling ard, because i haven't set my mind to)

i'm fair
(because it's been long since i get my ass out in the sun, because i haven't go diving for so long, because of H1N1, i can't bring my DIVE IG for dive trips or some suntanning session at the pool)

i'm feeling sucky
(because my hair sucks BIG TIME, bangs, bangbang, how bad can it be? VERY BAD!)

i'm totally free
(because there's nothing for me to do at all other than going to school, eat, sleep, eat, sleep, watch tv, watch movie)

i'm totally fat right now
(so since there's nothing for me to do, there's no need for much movement too, thus, fat, VERY)

i'm gonna die in my own self-pity
(because i think, that i'm really fat, huge, enormous right now)

i'm feeling helpless
(because the world stop turning due to H1N1, so is my world, SO BORING)

i'm gonna bang again the wall, soon
(if i don't find myself getting busy again soon)
HAHAH! cel&joan says that i'm workaholic, i can't help it, it's so boring, so -.- that i've got nothing to do everything except to eat eat and eat

and finally,
i wanna sleep in my honey bun's embrace! can't wait.