the feeling of no one is around for me is back again
oh well..
i might be able to make do with it
rather than fighting hard for it, i might just give it up
because i strongly believe in:
what's yours will definately be yours, and true hearts will definately have one in return.
however, maybe i learn that the second one might be invalid.
and everyone has got their own life, we can't have any say and we can't interfere,
we don't owe each other anything.
at the end of the day, some things might just go back to null
and
i'm not ready,
not after all the drama.
i suggest, that you might wanna take a step back first.
Friday, December 11, 2009
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Monday, November 30, 2009
haiya.. i'm bursting soon, like real soon.
so many things!
just feel like running away, run far far away!
i miss going out with girlfriends, go have meal with friends and everything.
my life is damm fucking boring and lifeless now.
so many things!
just feel like running away, run far far away!
i miss going out with girlfriends, go have meal with friends and everything.
my life is damm fucking boring and lifeless now.
i'm back!
and back from tk's mummy's birthday celebration too.
have been eating SO SO SO VERY THE MUCH! (like i just came back from genting and everyday is just eat eat and eat, buffet for dinner, buffet for lunch, thai food for dinner, kenny rogers for lunch, ice-cream everyday, one BIG tub of ice cream to share with 2 pax on the way down hill, yadayada and just had a buffet for lunch for the celebration and it's at the straits kitchen, Hyatt, so can you imagine how wide the spread of delicacy they offer -.-)
i'm bursting -.- from overflow of food!
fat lah fat : ( sad. i gained around 1 kg?
but the appeareance seems of much greater impact than just 1kg -.-
IMA GOTTA GO ON DIET! (AGAIN -.-)
anyway, just got a facebook message from my dear girl, metgaga!
wahlau, miss her very the much! but no time no $$ to go bangkok!
: (
oh, her message asked about my boyf.
hmmmm, kinda got me thinking about the past relationship i had and the current one.
the last one(i'm sure all of you know who, but i just don't wanna say who).. left me quite a deep impact, in whatever ways, left me quite a big wound too..
well.. i'm not afraid to let people say what, i change boyfriend so fast, very "sui bian" or what, because those who say this kinda things definately do not know what happened and what i had been through. a friend of mine say, don't so fast, tongue will wag, but so what? i believe those who know what i had been through will definately support me.
well, then people might ask, so what have i been through?
i can repeat the WHOLE BLOODY story again, but what's the point? don't wanna look back anymore, it's.. terrible.
the only thing i can say is, (blank). yea, no idea what's the only thing i can say too, because so much so much happened and i can never summarise it neither can i summarise my feelings in just a sentence or a word.
the process is just.. a lot of crying and breaking down in the first place, then i see the truth and i pick what's good for me. cool?
yea.
i.. can't confidently say he's totally outta my mind, like when i see vanilla products, i still think of him, but so what? he don't mean a thing anymore. heard that he got a new girl too, good for him, i would only wanna wish him all the best, and if that's the one for him, cherish her, relationship.. i can only say, don't do things which will bound to have regrets.
anyhow! it's over.
and i would appreciate if people would stop asking, just know this:
i was hurt, very deeply, but now i'm happy because there's a guy whom he promised that he will take care of me and dote me and will never hurt me.
just this, good enough.
this is gonna be the LAST LAST post i will ever gonna write about him.
so long.
p.s will blog about EVERYTHING (geez, i've got tons to update) when i get all the pictures : )
ohyaohya! i just came back from watching new moon. WOOHOOO! twilight never fail to amaze me!
but the last part is dammmmmm irritating -.- gotta wait another year for the story to continue. ohwell! guess in the meanwhile, i'm gonna buy the whole twilight saga and read it over the xmas! bagus : )
and i love edward to the max! he's my one and only choice forever lah! heh
and back from tk's mummy's birthday celebration too.
have been eating SO SO SO VERY THE MUCH! (like i just came back from genting and everyday is just eat eat and eat, buffet for dinner, buffet for lunch, thai food for dinner, kenny rogers for lunch, ice-cream everyday, one BIG tub of ice cream to share with 2 pax on the way down hill, yadayada and just had a buffet for lunch for the celebration and it's at the straits kitchen, Hyatt, so can you imagine how wide the spread of delicacy they offer -.-)
i'm bursting -.- from overflow of food!
fat lah fat : ( sad. i gained around 1 kg?
but the appeareance seems of much greater impact than just 1kg -.-
IMA GOTTA GO ON DIET! (AGAIN -.-)
anyway, just got a facebook message from my dear girl, metgaga!
wahlau, miss her very the much! but no time no $$ to go bangkok!
: (
oh, her message asked about my boyf.
hmmmm, kinda got me thinking about the past relationship i had and the current one.
the last one(i'm sure all of you know who, but i just don't wanna say who).. left me quite a deep impact, in whatever ways, left me quite a big wound too..
well.. i'm not afraid to let people say what, i change boyfriend so fast, very "sui bian" or what, because those who say this kinda things definately do not know what happened and what i had been through. a friend of mine say, don't so fast, tongue will wag, but so what? i believe those who know what i had been through will definately support me.
well, then people might ask, so what have i been through?
i can repeat the WHOLE BLOODY story again, but what's the point? don't wanna look back anymore, it's.. terrible.
the only thing i can say is, (blank). yea, no idea what's the only thing i can say too, because so much so much happened and i can never summarise it neither can i summarise my feelings in just a sentence or a word.
the process is just.. a lot of crying and breaking down in the first place, then i see the truth and i pick what's good for me. cool?
yea.
i.. can't confidently say he's totally outta my mind, like when i see vanilla products, i still think of him, but so what? he don't mean a thing anymore. heard that he got a new girl too, good for him, i would only wanna wish him all the best, and if that's the one for him, cherish her, relationship.. i can only say, don't do things which will bound to have regrets.
anyhow! it's over.
and i would appreciate if people would stop asking, just know this:
i was hurt, very deeply, but now i'm happy because there's a guy whom he promised that he will take care of me and dote me and will never hurt me.
just this, good enough.
this is gonna be the LAST LAST post i will ever gonna write about him.
so long.
p.s will blog about EVERYTHING (geez, i've got tons to update) when i get all the pictures : )
ohyaohya! i just came back from watching new moon. WOOHOOO! twilight never fail to amaze me!
but the last part is dammmmmm irritating -.- gotta wait another year for the story to continue. ohwell! guess in the meanwhile, i'm gonna buy the whole twilight saga and read it over the xmas! bagus : )
and i love edward to the max! he's my one and only choice forever lah! heh
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
when life got motivated
november 2009.
one month to the end of 2009.
am i satisfied?
no, sad to say no
president of dive ig, vice-president of modern dance
but it feels like because i got pre-occupied with something else ,
(WHICH IS LIKE A TOTAL WASTE OF TIME AND EFFORT!)
i didn't managed to give it my best,
that's definately not my best.
i kinda regret it actually.
but well, life goes on, at least my life is kinda back to how it used to be like, i am back to the old elle low yi han, not toooooooo bad.
is that a good start for 2010?
i really hope so.
current - april 2010
still! the president of dive ig and vice-president of modern dance.
since i can't turn back time, i made a firm decision on giving it my best for the responsibilities respectively.
5 more months, i wish i have more, but i wasted the past 7 months given to me,
GIVE IT ALL ELLE, YOU CAN DO IT.
april 2010, republic polytechnic, year 3.
i'm gonna graduate soon, so fast.
i'm glad that i've been attending school everyday since this sem,
i too, wasted the previous 2 semesters on rubbish matters too.
again, i'm gonna tell myself this, since i can't turn back time, just make sure that i do not continue with the slack me anymore, give it all elle, you can do it.
on a (right) sidenote, as you can seeeeeeeeeeee, i got bangs with not so long hair now.
should i keep it this way? or should i let it grow and perm?
don't know eh.
how?
on (left) sidenote, i feeling feeling, wanna do a paragraph just for my dear stacey!
HAHAHAHAHAHHA!
my dear stacey! my 18th birthday with you was EXCELLENT!
the past 11 months with you = VERY BAGUS too!
thanks girl, for being there ALWAYS!
(like really always, you never fail to be there for me)
ever since metiga left singapore, she left an empty space too, i'm glad and i'm very sure to say that, you filled up that space for her : )
she will thank you for that, right metiga?
metiga and stacey, the most important girls in my life together with the rest of my girlfs,
i have no idea how to show my love, but i do love you all VERY VERY MUCH! : )
one month to the end of 2009.
am i satisfied?
no, sad to say no
president of dive ig, vice-president of modern dance
but it feels like because i got pre-occupied with something else ,
(WHICH IS LIKE A TOTAL WASTE OF TIME AND EFFORT!)
i didn't managed to give it my best,
that's definately not my best.
i kinda regret it actually.
but well, life goes on, at least my life is kinda back to how it used to be like, i am back to the old elle low yi han, not toooooooo bad.
is that a good start for 2010?
i really hope so.
current - april 2010
still! the president of dive ig and vice-president of modern dance.
since i can't turn back time, i made a firm decision on giving it my best for the responsibilities respectively.
5 more months, i wish i have more, but i wasted the past 7 months given to me,
GIVE IT ALL ELLE, YOU CAN DO IT.
april 2010, republic polytechnic, year 3.
i'm gonna graduate soon, so fast.
i'm glad that i've been attending school everyday since this sem,
i too, wasted the previous 2 semesters on rubbish matters too.
again, i'm gonna tell myself this, since i can't turn back time, just make sure that i do not continue with the slack me anymore, give it all elle, you can do it.
on a (right) sidenote, as you can seeeeeeeeeeee, i got bangs with not so long hair now.
should i keep it this way? or should i let it grow and perm?
don't know eh.
how?
on (left) sidenote, i feeling feeling, wanna do a paragraph just for my dear stacey!
HAHAHAHAHAHHA!
my dear stacey! my 18th birthday with you was EXCELLENT!
the past 11 months with you = VERY BAGUS too!
thanks girl, for being there ALWAYS!
(like really always, you never fail to be there for me)
ever since metiga left singapore, she left an empty space too, i'm glad and i'm very sure to say that, you filled up that space for her : )
she will thank you for that, right metiga?
metiga and stacey, the most important girls in my life together with the rest of my girlfs,
i have no idea how to show my love, but i do love you all VERY VERY MUCH! : )
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