(that's what uni kept emphasising on)
but im late for the new year wish, but i dont really care.
i dont feel the mood, i dont have the feeling that im actually stepping into a whole new year.
i feel, normal, nothing, and blank.
1st january 2008, i was out.
but i felt nothing.
except for when im looking at a table full of yummy foods which really made me drool, that made me elated and excited.
but other than that, nothing.
talking about that table of yummy foods, i had spicy frog leg porridge, cereal prawns, sambal kangkong, crab with salted eggs and fried ice-cream.
i was darn full, i almost burst, like a balloon.
and i watched 'live'.
there's 2 that night.
how silly.
i feel as if they are adults with no brain, or adults with kids' mentality.
or shld i say that's typical singaporean?
i hope, the people that im gonna meet next time, wouldnt be like that.
i would run away, seriously.
cause i feel disguested and disgrace.
what a gentlemen and a lady shld do, is to settle things peacefully, and not by violent acts.
i know i shouldnt preach at the start of a whole new year, but i think i have the correct mindset.
(at least, i hope so)
enough of my preaching (i still havent say my piece yet), back to earth, within the atmosphere.
im gonna think back now.
in the year of 2007, i didnt do my best for anything and everything.
i can feel it.
be it for my family, my friends, my studies, my dance and everything i had and am still having.
i feel that i didnt contribute to my family, likewise for my brother.
im not honest to my friends, im not serious to some of them, i took some of them round the merry go round. what's left to say, or the only thing that i could say now will be, im sorry to all friends who felt that way.
in the year of 2008, elle will be different.
i didnt study hard enough for my Os, i didnt have enough determination to endure the whole process of it, i kinda give up half way.
i almost died.
but it was too late for any regret now, i guess i will most probably die on the spot when i glimpse at the points i got.
i didnt work my very best for my dance, i know i could do better, that's not all that i had.
i trust myself that im gonna make a difference in the year of 2008.
and... that's it.
END! short&sweet ( like how i love sweet&sour fish, HA!)
and today, i did the first ever retarded thing in the year of 2008.
i wanted to tap out of the station, and i dig my purse for card.
guess what i took out? i took out my POSB ATM CARD!
(uni dont laugh!)
but im serious, i actually took that out.
and i went town to look for my year 2008 dairy (or some will call it a organiser, i call it both)
i wanna look for a very nice one, i dont mind a expensive one, cause it's gonna be with me for a year.
i told uni that im gonna go back bukit view and get a handbook, she said im retarded -.-
but im kinda used to it.
there's feelings attached to the bukitviewsecondaryschool's student dairy alrdy.
well, it's 4 years.
well, it's 4 years.
4 years of my life, which is now 1/4 of my life spent using that.
but, i better dont.
i will look darn.. (im lost for vocab, i cant think of any which could describe the look i will be in if i really carry one with me)
so, anyone who see a very beautiful dairy/organiser, i want one which is meant for the year of 2008.
tag me! or message me, or msn me, or leave a comment at my friendster, or whatever you guys can think of.
i need one urgently!
it's the 3rd day of 2008 alrdy! but i still havent got one!
i feel!!! i feel!! i feel constipated! LOL!
the word suits what im feeling right now. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
and i have got so much to buy, my input wouldnt be enough for my output!
i want a shorts for 50 bucks, i want a watch for 200 bucks, i think im nuts.
i think im spending too much.
i need a new job, to withstand all my expenses, and to grant my never-ending-shopping-list.
how i wish im starting school ytd, like how some of my friends did, they went for the jc course.
how i wish im one of them, i would be able to meet new friends, have got homework to do, have got things to be busy with.
and i wouldbt be fretting over job and money.
i think i had talked a lil too much. i shall leave some for tml's post.
ohya, had a webcam session with met a day ago.
I REALLY MISS HER! A LOT A LOT A LOT!
i wanna swim to thailand! (cause i still havent earn enough for an air ticket there)
I LOVE YOU MET! LIKE HOW I ALWAYS DO! IT WILL BE FOREVER! DONT JEALOUS, CAUSE YOU GOT FLINGS ALSO!
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