I HATE WEEKENDS, PERIOD

weekends used to be the best days out of the week, but it's not gonna be anymore.
i hate weekends approaching,
i hate weekends approaching &
i hate weekends approaching.

why?

BECAUSE THERE'S MUN WAI'S REHEARSAL
AND I JUST
*URGH!
CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT GIVE HIM WHAT HE WANTS
AND I'M ALSO VERY DISAPPOINTED/ANGRY WITH MYSELF!

there's a 4 hours rehearsal on saturday and a 10 hours rehearsal on sunday.
and i seriously.. just. cannot
i've no idea how to express my *clench fist* kinda feelings for it but this feeling really sucks and i'm on the verge of pulling out all my hair because i am very stress, very very stress indeed and his choreography is not easy although it may seems like so but it's not at all because he don't give countings for his movements and he uses breathe&momentum&natural body reaction to give music to the steps he choreograph and it's really so effing difficult and i can tell that he's getting all pissy over the fact that i just can't get what he wants because i'm not showing it but i maybe know what he wants but i just can't show it because it's really difficult and i've not enough time to catch his style and he don't have enough time to give me to do it slowly considering that there's only 7 more rehearsals before he flys off and leave us in the hands of liz, our rehearsal leader which might not be the best choice because he, no matter what is still the choreographer and nobody will know what he really really wants except for him but even if so, we still don't have any choice and we can only choose to take it which is to speed up the learing process and catch it fast and give him what he wants fast and push our body to 200%, no longer 100% or even 101% and he wants us to behave like artistes and not students because he always tell us that we're not students, we're artiste so please fucking dance like one, okay, that f word is silent which i hear/see from him and i'm really so stress because i just don't know what to do or how to dance anymore and also don't know how to give him what he wants and it's just omg, OMG.
i really don't know what to say anymore because all i feel like doing is to pluck off my hair out now.

so right now, period,
i hate weekends, a lot, effing lot, and how i wish it will NEVER come.

school's starting tml, formal wear on the first day, *how sucky can life be?*
and there's dance like tml and friday and saturday and sunday and also next monday.
sigh
sigh
can anyone understand how i'm feeling?
can anyone anyone understand how i'm feeling?
can anyone really understand how i'm feeling?
can anyone really really understand how i'm feeling?

anw, tuesday is gonna be the best day of the week right now,
because every tuesday will be STACEY DAY!
woohoo!
made a pact with stacey dear, that no matter what happen, be it big rain, thunderstorm, flood, earthquake, or whatever, we will definately go out on tuesday after school.
and ben is very jealous! HAHA!
i think this is really good, because once school starts, schedule's gonna be very very hectic and i will not get to see much of stacey too.
we'll most prob be doing work in class, i won't be in for rehearsal on monday, she won't be in for rehearsal on thursday, meaning the only day we will see each other will be friday's rehearsal.
ohwell, at least now we got tuesday, happy enough.

good night.
i hope my class will be fun! with shah and tasha! YEY!
but very sad : ( no more shakila. sigh : (