the most hectic schedule i ever have,
there's gonna be dance like really 7 days a week.
many upcoming performances,
and thus many rehearsals.
i can travel to 3 different places for meeting/rehearsal/more rehearsal in a day, 2 of which is the same which is school.
so it goes like this, to school for dive meeting, to aljunied/kallang for mun wai's rehearsal and back to school for zaini's rehearsal.
or it can even be a rehearsal before a performance, mun wai's rehearsal from 1 - 4pm and then rush back to school for jam&hop performance at 6.30pm.
and another one, mun wai's rehearsal from 10am - 2pm and then back to school for tjc's reverie v performance at 7pm.
but of course, preparations have to be done for performances, so imagine... woah, i can't imagine.
the amount of things, the time constrain and stuff.

but surprisingly, i'm looking forward to all these, like really.
because i feel a great sense of accomplisment from all these.
the only thing i'm disgusted at is my disability to perform to mun wai's choreography.
very very disgusted, till the fact that i hate myself for that!
but taking in what marcus said, "be patience with your body, because it really takes time to adjust to mun wai's style"
i shall be patience (although i'm still very disgusted and angry at my disability for now)
i wanna get it fast and quick, i want everyone who's gonna come on 3/4th of june to be surprised at how different i am, breaking away from all the ballet lines and the ability to take in a new form of style.
i want it very very badly, very very badly!!!

sigh, on a sidenote, i'm sad. because of all these, i've got less time for the people i love, for the people i care and for the people i adore now.
people like MUMMY, because whenever i reach home, i will just fall asleep on the sofa. and my weekends are gone too, with rehearsal on both days and sunday from like 10am to 7pm!
people like GIRLFRIENDS, april is going to china soon :( and me stalling all the meet up because i can't make it :(
people like RANGERS, because all of us are busy, i'm really very sad that i haven't been meeting them up since like 8765432123456 years ago.
people like MISC, HAHA! there's a lot of people who are dear to me, but they don't belong to a clique of mine, they're just individual and VERY SORRY! i've to put you guys under this category to (still) sum up the same (fact) that i wanna meet you guys up badly, but i can't.

i wanna meet all of you badly but i can't
and I'M SORRY :(

because of all these, some might felt neglected, some might felt i no longer love them, some might felt otherwise of anything positive, i just wanna say:
once dear to me, forever dear to me!
i hope all those who are dear to me can understand me, and give me the support i need, because i need it badly to survive all these! and school is starting soon, i might just die of exhaustion.

5 words to conclude:
I STILL LOVE YOU PEOPLE! :D

p.s this post is really random, but this post is to show that i still care!